There is a place no one really prepares for you. Its the space between what was and what will be. Between prayers and prayers answered. Between survival and healing. Between who you used to be and who God is shaping you into. This is the middle. And if you’re here, let me tell you something you might not believe yet-you are not failing. You are not behind. And you are not forgotten. The middle is uncomfortable. It stretches your faith, exposes your fear, asks you to trust without clarity and surrender control. But it is also holy ground. Because here -when answers are incomplete and strength feels thin-God does some of His deepest work. Not just around you but in you. You are being held. And this season-this middle-it will not be wasted.

There’s a trait I have carried for years that I never understood until recently: when I’m overwhelmed, i shut down and put up a wall, not because I don’t care but because I have spent my whole life being the strong one. And when you’ve lived in survival mode long enough, vulnerability starts to feel unsafe. This blog is me telling the truth—not just for me, but for every woman who pushes people away even though her heart is begging to be held.

When God asks you to care for the one who hurt you…

For years, I thought I was pouring myself into everyone else-my kids, my husband, my residents, my staff. But if I’m honest, I was surviving more than I was showing up. I was tired, distracted, and trying to fix things on the surface while other parts of my life were falling apart underneath. And yet, God never stopped tugging on my heart, whispering that it’s not over and there’s still more He wants to do through me.

Being strong all the time isn’t the goal anymore. I’m learning to rest, to speak my story out loud, and to let grace do the heavy lifting. Because even when I’m weary and worn out, I’m still loved, still seen, and still called.

When everything around you is changing…

This isn’t just a blog-it’s a sisterhood for the woman who knows she’s meant for more. Maybe you feel behind. Maybe you feel silenced by shame or weariness or self-doubt. Maybe you’re just trying to survive this season you are currently in. If you’re tired, wrestling with your purpose, and ready to rise, welcome home. You are crowned by grace and called by God.